Confessions of a Poet
A writer once said, “To write is to write is to write is to write is to write…” My interpretation is that there is no exact meaning as to what writing is. To write is to simply write . All writers have their own reason as to why they are writing. I was once one of those who aspired to see a book bound and shove into a bookshelf with my name as the author and my writings inside it.
I started writing at the age of 10. As a child, I grew up reading books about literature but never understanding what they are about. I just read for practice because I was told to. Don’t get me wrong, though I was compelled to read, I loved what I was doing. I just don’t understand them at that time because the books that I was reading were for college. I started reading books about Rizal and Philippine Literature at an early age. I guess those were my foundation in reading and writing.
The first poem I have written was about the Cherry tree. I was fascinated by Japanese culture since my mother was working in Japan that time. I have been given access to all things Japanese. From toys, food, anime , merchandise and Jpop. We also have a lot of magazines about Japan. I’ve read an article about the Cherry tree and I was captured by its’ beauty as well as how it symbolizes the Japanese people. After that, I tried to become creative so I painted the Cherry tree using my water color paint and powder. So instead of my art being made from watercolor, it was made of colored powder. It wasn’t a masterpiece because I wasn’t really an artist. But as a child, I was amazed about what I can do and was thrilled and inspired. That’s when words came to my mind and I put them all together and created the poem. Having been able to write a poem was amazing for me and that continued on until I unraveled more rhymes and styles on my own. I wrote poems for my friends , poems about love and poems about school. I never tried reading books on how to write poems or how to follow styles. I simply wrote with based on my emotions. Then I tried writing stories too. I started with One shots that were mostly if not tragic, would be a horror story. I felt a thirst for writing so I wanted more. I tried to write long story lines aspiring to develop as novels. I had written so many of them up to this date, and what's funny is that I haven’t been able to finished any of them. I may not be cut out for novels.
Writing was my outlet of emotions. When I’m sad, happy or angry about anything, I write about it. Even when I'm bored, I write. Writing was my passion and dream. Back then, it was like writing is breathing. It was a normal thing for me to be able to write poems. Finding words that rhymes was easy peasy. As I grew up, I learned to change my writing genre and styles. My topics become different , though some would still focus on love, the thoughts has become deeper. I would often find reading my old poems funny, but I value them because I was the one that put those words together.
I am proud being able to write poems, even if no one would read them. I did not write for others. I wrote for the sake of writing. And I don't know what happened to me. It has been 3 years since I was able to write a poem. I would sometimes try to pick up a pen and a paper to put words together and though lines would start, I cannot finish them. I have a bundle of unfinished poems. And I just stopped writing.
From the start, what motivated me to write was writing. I hope I could find myself back to it again.
I started writing at the age of 10. As a child, I grew up reading books about literature but never understanding what they are about. I just read for practice because I was told to. Don’t get me wrong, though I was compelled to read, I loved what I was doing. I just don’t understand them at that time because the books that I was reading were for college. I started reading books about Rizal and Philippine Literature at an early age. I guess those were my foundation in reading and writing.
The first poem I have written was about the Cherry tree. I was fascinated by Japanese culture since my mother was working in Japan that time. I have been given access to all things Japanese. From toys, food, anime , merchandise and Jpop. We also have a lot of magazines about Japan. I’ve read an article about the Cherry tree and I was captured by its’ beauty as well as how it symbolizes the Japanese people. After that, I tried to become creative so I painted the Cherry tree using my water color paint and powder. So instead of my art being made from watercolor, it was made of colored powder. It wasn’t a masterpiece because I wasn’t really an artist. But as a child, I was amazed about what I can do and was thrilled and inspired. That’s when words came to my mind and I put them all together and created the poem. Having been able to write a poem was amazing for me and that continued on until I unraveled more rhymes and styles on my own. I wrote poems for my friends , poems about love and poems about school. I never tried reading books on how to write poems or how to follow styles. I simply wrote with based on my emotions. Then I tried writing stories too. I started with One shots that were mostly if not tragic, would be a horror story. I felt a thirst for writing so I wanted more. I tried to write long story lines aspiring to develop as novels. I had written so many of them up to this date, and what's funny is that I haven’t been able to finished any of them. I may not be cut out for novels.
Writing was my outlet of emotions. When I’m sad, happy or angry about anything, I write about it. Even when I'm bored, I write. Writing was my passion and dream. Back then, it was like writing is breathing. It was a normal thing for me to be able to write poems. Finding words that rhymes was easy peasy. As I grew up, I learned to change my writing genre and styles. My topics become different , though some would still focus on love, the thoughts has become deeper. I would often find reading my old poems funny, but I value them because I was the one that put those words together.
I am proud being able to write poems, even if no one would read them. I did not write for others. I wrote for the sake of writing. And I don't know what happened to me. It has been 3 years since I was able to write a poem. I would sometimes try to pick up a pen and a paper to put words together and though lines would start, I cannot finish them. I have a bundle of unfinished poems. And I just stopped writing.
From the start, what motivated me to write was writing. I hope I could find myself back to it again.
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